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Changmin barely smiles in photos and never speaks in interviews and then he pulls expressions like this during performances. it’s fucking heartbreaking.

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Sitting here having just finished a glass of coke listening to Kuroyume “Merry X’Mas, I Love You” on repeat because it feels wrong to listen to sad ballads or angry rock music on Christmas, even though that is what I really feel like listening to. (And I probably will eventually give in…) All I’ve eaten is chocolate and more chocolate. add to that a serious lack of sleep and I’m pretty hyped up right now. I was feeling a bit depressed the first part of today (and yesterday and probably the day before that) but I think with this amount of sugar and caffeine in me I’m OK.

Merry Christmas!!!!! Yay?

I’m really bored tbh. Got up early and opened presents- got some good stuff. Once more the family made sure to get me alot of Japan themed things! Sister bought me red-bean mochi which I look forward to eating on the new year ^^ Then talked to family over Skype which was so so very awkward. I hate phones and I hate cameras and that is basically what Skype is and thus I come across so rude and awkward and I really hate it. My sister talked to them so naturally yet I’m so rude. :( Also we were there in our pajamas whilst they were all dressed and ready. It was interesting to see and speak to people, though they haven’t changed much. Finally got read for the day after they hung up then sat and listened to music before going on the computer and am now spending the day like any other. Fanfiction, Internet surfing and I will probably land up on youtube. Just like any day, but with more chocolate…or rather higher quality chocolate.

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Fic written for my BB, dbsjdelight HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :* I know I’m late to give this (fail and loser fic T^T) – such a bad husband, you can say that :< but… I hope you’ll like this one :”> though I know this sucks a lot…
 

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Crappy photography aside it is snowing~ Probably will be a white christmas even if it doesn’t snow on the day. Ironically I was listening to Super Junior “carnival” as I started this post. How i wish it was warm and summery. The snow is so pretty to look at but it’s a pain when you actually go outside.

I haven’t blogged for a while as I’ve not really felt like it. I’ve just been in a bit off an offish mood tbh. There has been some stuff happening to keep me busy too. Went to Sheffield probably quite a while back as mentioned in a blog entry and it was kind of crappy. Didn’t feel well either so I had a DNW expression on my face the entire time which meant I didn’t make a very good impression and became very unresponsive by the time my interview came around which again didn’t make a good impression. Got a bit lost at the beginning too- first finding the place and then went to the wrong department when I finally got there. Rather embarrassing :/ What I liked about this university visit in comparison to the lat is that they took us on a tour of the accommodation and the city. It sold the uni to me a little as the accommodation and city were lovely.

So yes then it was school and more school, boring and kind of stressful because of a certain piece of coursework (I blogged about it on livejournal friends-only because I doubt you want to see my rant about that). On Friday we had half day and then the long boring end of term assembly. It was so dull. I decided I didn’t give a damn and sat and refused to participate- as in people stood up around me to sing the carols and stuff and I just sat and watched them. I can only be thankful they didn’t have endless dance performances or awards, so it was over pretty quick and I could go home already. Does it ever happen to you that you are somewhere but yet you feel really detached from it? Like you aren’t really part of it? I was in that kind of mood.

I only had Saturday to relax before on Sunday I was off to London with family. It was OK. ( more details about that under here )

I’m glad it is over now though and I’m home. I started feeling unwell on the train back from London because it was really shaky, and this girl in front of me decided she was going to eat the smelliest fish meal ever which didn’t help. I still don’t feel so great. I feel slightly emotionally drained too.

It’s Christmas soon and can’t say I’m that excited…. yet.

Written for my Neko, mintkaffe