You were the one who promised me that you'd do anything for me, that you'd listen to me and my feelings. You were the one who promised me that one day, we'd be together, and that together would stretch out for ever. You were the one who promised me that you'd always remain by my side, holding my hand, and support me. You were the one who promised me, that if the world went against me, you'd turn your back on them too. You were the one who promised me that you'd love me forever, and never break my heart.
Life is nothing but a passing phase, a definitive experience, actuality. For some, it's an opportunity of opportunities. For most, it's a steady, dreary routine. And for the rest, it's just useless.
Tegoshi thinks his life is a waste of space and time.
He figures he's right, he has to be. He is unessential, inessential, nonessential. Not required. He doesn't mean anything to people, he doesn't have an meaning himself.
His life is just an excuse; a hindrance. Sadness, anguish, pain are synonymous to him. He is scarred; untouched by purity. He has no one, he is alone.
Sometimes, it hurts. To be the bright spot of everybody's lives; to be the sunshine that everyone seeks. To be happy when you aren't. To smile forever, whether it be a true smile or not, for the sake of others' happiness.
Being happy when you aren't. Giving someone a shoulder when you're the one hurting inside, hiding all your tears. It's all so important, yet so fake. But you can't always let your true emotions be set free.
Sometimes, you have to sacrifice. Let go. And yet, smile, smile like you're happy; like this world might end tomorrow; like it's necessary. Because it might be painful, but it's for someone else.
Ah. Sorry D: I promise next fic will not be as lame as my recent ones and will hopefully be an improvement? And also, although Promise has no specific pairing, I was thinking of Tego/Massu when writing it (Massu-centric?)...
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anakari) wrote,
uncomfortable
